Random details,

I have absolutely no clue what to write, right here.
Its weird how I can have so much to say to my family, & so much to say to my friends - but when it comes down to really writing something important or something I really can talk about, I never can put it into words.
I want to start out in saying that it's so so so amazing that the weather is doing it's natural thing & turning warm again. Winter use to be my favorite season, (actually second favorite to Fall) but no I despise it. It went by so slow, I never went skiing & basically Christmas was nothing special, so I was like "Hey, whens it gonna end?"
But here we are, as I'm sitting inside writing this blog, the sun is popping out below the earth & rising for all to see.
I wish I was outside to enjoy it, but I'm sure I'll enjoy it later. Another thing about the warm weather that is arriving would defiantly have to be about how I am going to experience it so differently this year. We just moved into a condo, my mom and I, and that's a very big size difference to our house before. We had a nice front yard & big back yard that I've known ever since I've ever known anything so, it's just so different. We have a balcony at the condo.. No comparison. I just miss knowing what I use to & coming home everyday, because it was my home. There is a lot I miss about the house but it's not just missing the house, its missing the memories that happened with in that house. It's hard trying to make new memories for the condo, but it certainly is something new. I won't complain about it at all cause it is nice, clean& the prefect size for my mother & I but I just (again) miss my home.

Another (sort of) pointless thing in my life would have to be the fact that I recently got grounded for "bad behavior" no Facebook (which was completely blown out of proportion) although I wasn't punished that harshly. It irritated me so much that my mom doesn't seem to believe some things I say, & although my dad does that too, he has been really cool about things lately. My mom's the one that grounded me & honestly I wouldn't have cared that much if she would have just talked to me about it more & tried to believe in what I was saying instead of just jumping to conclusions and getting SO upset about them.
Although that annoyed me, my mother & I recently agreed on things after my "grounding" was over. I have to do a lot more around my house, considering that it is just me & her living there. I didn't do a lot before, and I admit that so I'll make it up to her.(:

Positive outlook, (finally)

So, technically - this isn't cheating. ;)

I'm going to take part of my blog from somewhere else & mesh it with some new input on here,. Enjoy:

..Honestly, it's a shame.

I'm starting to realize so much about what I truly knew nothing about before,

& as I feel it, I'm starting crave it & invent the feeling even more within myself.

I'm starting to realize that what I thought I knew everything about before was just,negative & critical, when it could make me feel so much better writing about positive things.I use to write about how upset I was, vent out to no one when I felt like everyone got it.

No one did.

So, why is this such a shame?

How all the little things before were so catastrophic - terrible - dramatic to me?

Because:

Now, that I look back I feel so pathetic, no, disappointed.

I took out all my anger in writing, I mean - my journal is filled with it, ahah,

but now (what the blog I'm about to add in is about) I just want to stay positive.

So here's what I was feeling before:



See, the little things; it's a shame. The little things in this world are what make up the BIG things, & what make them so - special.

But, NO one appreciates it. Most people walk through life, getting through every bit, every piece, every BAM & every BOOM with the slightest ease, that life is a toy but when something little happens - it's "SUCH A BIG DEAL".

I'm just now beginning to realize that, that all I ever saw before was how I thought I was going to screw up the little things in my life, when I just never gave them a chance,. I've always been lucky, but just never really appreciated it before.

Lucky; to have the people I love surround me.

Lucky; to be loved, not only by one, but many.

Lucky; to feel emotions & understand things that some people take for granted.

Lucky; to know who i am, & where I wanna go.

Lucky, lucky, lucky.

So, some are less fortunate & some are more BUT why don't we all just stop complaining about how unbelievably unlucky we are, & stop & realize that this is a one shot deal here, snatch or let it fall: Life will end, before you know it. Something BIG might sweep you off your feet & make you feel that all those little things that you were upset about before, were no comparison. I want to open up what I'm feeling now and show everyone that I can that it feels so much better to just be, happy, and to just appreciate because there is no comparison, really there isn't.

If you have enough strength to at least shine a bright smile across your face, :D,

once in a whole 24 hours, or have someone / something - make your day, then why pout?

People should just realize that we all have flaws, we all have things we dislike & that we all have problems:

BUT that doesn't mean we all can't smile at the end of the day.

We are all lucky, we just don't realize it through the sh*tty times that people are dealing with lately. If anything, I recommend, making a list about what you appreciate & like about your life - especially if you haven't been feeling to good lately, cause when you do, things will add up very quickly before you know it.

I promise, :)

So, I hope I didn't confuse anyone too much, although honestly I get confused a bit myself, as I try to understand it all.

If you took the time to read this - then good for you, ahaha, I just needed a little positive vent for once.