Random details,

I have absolutely no clue what to write, right here.
Its weird how I can have so much to say to my family, & so much to say to my friends - but when it comes down to really writing something important or something I really can talk about, I never can put it into words.
I want to start out in saying that it's so so so amazing that the weather is doing it's natural thing & turning warm again. Winter use to be my favorite season, (actually second favorite to Fall) but no I despise it. It went by so slow, I never went skiing & basically Christmas was nothing special, so I was like "Hey, whens it gonna end?"
But here we are, as I'm sitting inside writing this blog, the sun is popping out below the earth & rising for all to see.
I wish I was outside to enjoy it, but I'm sure I'll enjoy it later. Another thing about the warm weather that is arriving would defiantly have to be about how I am going to experience it so differently this year. We just moved into a condo, my mom and I, and that's a very big size difference to our house before. We had a nice front yard & big back yard that I've known ever since I've ever known anything so, it's just so different. We have a balcony at the condo.. No comparison. I just miss knowing what I use to & coming home everyday, because it was my home. There is a lot I miss about the house but it's not just missing the house, its missing the memories that happened with in that house. It's hard trying to make new memories for the condo, but it certainly is something new. I won't complain about it at all cause it is nice, clean& the prefect size for my mother & I but I just (again) miss my home.

Another (sort of) pointless thing in my life would have to be the fact that I recently got grounded for "bad behavior" no Facebook (which was completely blown out of proportion) although I wasn't punished that harshly. It irritated me so much that my mom doesn't seem to believe some things I say, & although my dad does that too, he has been really cool about things lately. My mom's the one that grounded me & honestly I wouldn't have cared that much if she would have just talked to me about it more & tried to believe in what I was saying instead of just jumping to conclusions and getting SO upset about them.
Although that annoyed me, my mother & I recently agreed on things after my "grounding" was over. I have to do a lot more around my house, considering that it is just me & her living there. I didn't do a lot before, and I admit that so I'll make it up to her.(:

Positive outlook, (finally)

So, technically - this isn't cheating. ;)

I'm going to take part of my blog from somewhere else & mesh it with some new input on here,. Enjoy:

..Honestly, it's a shame.

I'm starting to realize so much about what I truly knew nothing about before,

& as I feel it, I'm starting crave it & invent the feeling even more within myself.

I'm starting to realize that what I thought I knew everything about before was just,negative & critical, when it could make me feel so much better writing about positive things.I use to write about how upset I was, vent out to no one when I felt like everyone got it.

No one did.

So, why is this such a shame?

How all the little things before were so catastrophic - terrible - dramatic to me?

Because:

Now, that I look back I feel so pathetic, no, disappointed.

I took out all my anger in writing, I mean - my journal is filled with it, ahah,

but now (what the blog I'm about to add in is about) I just want to stay positive.

So here's what I was feeling before:



See, the little things; it's a shame. The little things in this world are what make up the BIG things, & what make them so - special.

But, NO one appreciates it. Most people walk through life, getting through every bit, every piece, every BAM & every BOOM with the slightest ease, that life is a toy but when something little happens - it's "SUCH A BIG DEAL".

I'm just now beginning to realize that, that all I ever saw before was how I thought I was going to screw up the little things in my life, when I just never gave them a chance,. I've always been lucky, but just never really appreciated it before.

Lucky; to have the people I love surround me.

Lucky; to be loved, not only by one, but many.

Lucky; to feel emotions & understand things that some people take for granted.

Lucky; to know who i am, & where I wanna go.

Lucky, lucky, lucky.

So, some are less fortunate & some are more BUT why don't we all just stop complaining about how unbelievably unlucky we are, & stop & realize that this is a one shot deal here, snatch or let it fall: Life will end, before you know it. Something BIG might sweep you off your feet & make you feel that all those little things that you were upset about before, were no comparison. I want to open up what I'm feeling now and show everyone that I can that it feels so much better to just be, happy, and to just appreciate because there is no comparison, really there isn't.

If you have enough strength to at least shine a bright smile across your face, :D,

once in a whole 24 hours, or have someone / something - make your day, then why pout?

People should just realize that we all have flaws, we all have things we dislike & that we all have problems:

BUT that doesn't mean we all can't smile at the end of the day.

We are all lucky, we just don't realize it through the sh*tty times that people are dealing with lately. If anything, I recommend, making a list about what you appreciate & like about your life - especially if you haven't been feeling to good lately, cause when you do, things will add up very quickly before you know it.

I promise, :)

So, I hope I didn't confuse anyone too much, although honestly I get confused a bit myself, as I try to understand it all.

If you took the time to read this - then good for you, ahaha, I just needed a little positive vent for once.

Valemtines Day: <3

When I walk into Walgreens, or any drug store around this time of year, all I see is the bright shimmering colors and decorations that fill a certain section in the store. They dedicate the same section for every holiday, actually, so why is this one so special? They are never really special perhaps, I mean, it's just Valentine’s day.

They stock the shelves with cards, and letters that are supposed to be so meaningful, so thoughtful to the one you love, but in my opinion it really means nothing. The rows become filled with candy and chocolates that seem to be the sweetest gift to receive. I love receiving gifts, and won't be one to deny it but I hate the advertising and commercializing of something just to make it a big deal. Valentine's day should not just be about, if someone got you a gift or not, but should rather be about the surprise & hope that someone actually cares enough to get you something.

I remember when it felt like everything was special, not just involving Valentine's day, but the thrill of holidays in all. I use obsess over which one would come next and what I would want / NEED to have. I liked that but now I don't veiw holidays in the same way. Cupid really doesn't get his glory; the candy stores do.


I use to get so excited. I use to, but now its all just a game. I will enjoy this year receiving a gift possibly, or maybe some candy - even a few cards, but what i'm mostly excited about is going over & hanging out with all my friends on Saturday, February 24th. My bud, Brendan,(look at the previous few blogs) is gonna have a bunch of people over Saturday & I just cannot wait. I'm actually excited this year, whether I have a "Valentine" or not. But, why would I share that with you? (;

It doesn't really matter, I mean I am content with everything & everyone but this year is different. This year i'm not spending tons of money trying to impress people with what I can get them; this year it's just the celebration of it all & I certainly

love that way, way more.